I am turning into my mother!!!

I am a neurotic nut job. Seriously. Do you ever have those days? I want to be calm, cool, and put together. Have a new baby? No problem. Relocating family of 5 across state? No problem. Schedule all those last minute hair, dentist, and doctor appointments before said move? Done and done.

Except not so much. In my hurry to be efficient and prepared, I think I am going into overkill. Does the 2 year old need to see the dentist? No, b/c she is too little. Why didn't they tell me that over the phone when I made the d*mn appointment? 3 children in a little dentist office is officially my version of hell. Just so you know. When will I get my wisdom teeth pulled? Who knows? I will have to stop nursing for 2 days and when will my husband be able to get off to help me? Again, who knows? Suggestions anyone?

By the way, my husband is a lovely man, but he is completely unable to multi-task. Seriously. Do not, I repeat, do not get in the car with him if he plans to make a phone call while driving. 1. You won't get to your destination. And if by some freakish chance you do, it will be about 2 hours later after much turning around and lane swerving. Take my word for it. 2. You will fear for your life. It is just not worth it. So, with this in mind, how do you think he does with the children? Brilliantly--if that is all he is doing. However, he has taken to having his phone beep with every email. (D*mn those crackberrys!) Therefore, he has to check the thing EVERY TIME it goes off. Every time!!! Well, let me explain. In the dentist office with 3 children in our care is not the time to take to checking emails! Remember, the man CANNOT multi-task! I am prone in a chair with my mouth open, and what are our children doing? Who knows? This is why I almost wrestled his phone away from him and threw it against the wall. But thank God I was in the chair...I did yell (after my mouth was free!)

Example 2: Should 3 children accompany their mother to her hair appointment? (By the way, I am now blond and I must say--I look fabulous! :) ). The answer is no! Christy. Always. No. But what did I do?....This is a lesser version of hell. Just so you know.

So, the point is this: Why have I taken to making public scenes and irrational choices? This is not me. I am calm, cool, and collected, remember? I don't hop into pointless situations without thinking them through. Why do I feel I have lost all sense of poise and reason? Motherhood is demanding, somewhat degrading, but ultimately rewarding, right? I refuse to throw in the towel and don "mom jeans", a short haircut, and 80s-style Keds. But a mental breakdown and loss of all reason if the first step I fear...

PS--My husband is a wonderful, wonderful man. I am lucky he puts up with me. I hope he takes this schpeel with a grain of salt. (I love you honey!)

PPS--None of this really makes any sense, does it? I think that proves the title of this post--unfortunately.

Busy to the point of exhaustion--but God is still good!

Well, thankfully my kids are all healthy and well. Nathan and I are too, but we are physically exhausted from getting our house ready to put on the market. We have gotten very little sleep and our house feels like a show house--not our home. The poor girls--a lot of their toys disappeared overnight. We also found out that the market is really really bad in our neighborhood. We are going to take a serious loss on the house. But, before we could worry...

Yep, the company is going to pay that loss as well! God is so good! He definately has big plans for us in Longview. We are literally going to be able to walk away without any debt from this whole move. And if that is not enough--where we are going to live when we get up there was totally stressing me about as well. However, I talked to the Longview realtor and it just so happens that she owns a duplex that has one side open. 3 BR, 2 bath, 1400 sq. ft. with a garage and backyard. We have to see it first of course, but isn't God good? This literally could not be any easier. Good thing too b/c Nathan and I have a lot on our plates right now... :)